dear Diary,

You shoud know...

What discipline really means and why I hate it!

You know how people keep saying "discipline" is good? Well, they should go look the word up in a dictionary first :)

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The word discipline means something like this:

"practice of forcing the acceptance of absolute (no way around them) rules of behaviour on other people; ability to behave and work in a limited and restrained (being held back) manner where someone else has power over you".

Where did I get that from?

Here's what my little dictionary has to say about the word "discipline":

discipline n. practice of imposing strict rules of behaviour on other people; ability to behave and work in a controlled manner; branch of learning.

The underlined words up there make a big difference... check them out:

impose v. force the acceptance of; take unfair advantage of.

strict adj. stern or severe; adhering closely to specified rules; complete, absolute.

controlled v. have power over; limit or restrain; regulate.

Put it all together, and you get something like the meaning at the top of this page.

And you thought all that dictionary work in school was useless :)

Why did I do all this? Well, because there seems to be the assumption that there should be more discipline in schools, and that disciplined people are good people. Disciplined people may or may not be good people, but it seems more as if discipline is something we should NOT want to have too much of, or even much of at all. Sure, disciplined kids won't shoot up the school. They won't steal people's stuff. But when it gets to the point that kids are considered to be good and disciplined when they have an antenna on their heads and teachers can make them do stuff via remote control, then we know something is not right.

Forget "discipline", forget those unnecessary rules that nobody can give a reason for, and simplify everything back to plain "right" or "wrong" - "wrong" being anything that can hurt another person, take advantage of them, or infringe their rights in any way, and everything else being either "right" or just "okay".

We humans are way too imperfect and not understanding enough to be trusted with the power of "disciplining" others.

Quote of the day
"Teachers, parents, and government officials often regard [young] people who refuse to submit to their authority as annoying and dysfunctional because we demand freedom every time they deny it." - Diane Krauthamer

LOve Poem for my GP essays and PI

My vision is clouded by tears in my eyes.
I used to think that visions of us were my only paradise. 
Just looking at you two, makes tears flow from my eyes.
You only see me as an idiot,
But how can that be, because our road to success hasn’t even begun. 
Many things with you have gone wrong in the past.
I sometimes find myself daydreaming about your deadly complexity,
And you know I "hate" you, but not this much.
I feel overwhelmed in sadness and have become so consumed
I don’t know how to say I wanna be without you 'so much' that I don’t know how to start,
But as each day goes by I wish you would give your 'answer key'.
Sometimes I wish I could dream forever,
Then that way we’ll always be more cooperative.
Unfortunately though, I wake up,
And I hate how reality always seems to suck.
At school it’ll be just another day
Another day that I’ll try to suppress my feelings for you away.

Dear diary, 

i wonder why my JC life is too "colourful"...

(in wrong unimaginable ways)

Hari pertama:

Manusia berambut jamur yg terkenal dng hasil SAT nya yg sempurna...(bukan kata saya, tp katanya) nge add gw di ruang bersimbang n dy bilank gw super ****... (freak out dhe lgsg)

i feel inferior talking to sum1 yg level inggris nya menjulang...(ga bisa bayangin kl kita bnran ngmg face to face)

Hari kedua:

sesorang tidak d knal tiba2 menghampiri ku dan "merebut" squash raket ku...

n mengayun ayunkannya...(meanwhile gw uda cengok minta ampun)

n said "knapa ni berat banget?" ( mentang mentang dy ank pingpong)

then...

untung si I van dtg ,, jadi keadaan sudah tidak begitu menegangkan lagi..

lalu dy menanyakan nama ku..

Amelia..

he: A-m-e-l-i-a?

yea.

he: A-m-e-l-i-a?

ya ya ya. (-_-)

"lu ga mau tau nama tmn tmn yg laen?"

one of my annoying and irritating friend said "lu ga mau tau nama kita, cmn mau tau nama dy (me) kan?"

he: Yea, TOTALLY (dng nada yg undescribeable ampe gw ngakak saking swt nya)

gathering yg td nya cmn buat ank indo jadi gagaL...

mau nya pergi k library buat bel , gw malah k kantin gr gr salting..>.<

hr ke3... (the worst)

i was "salting" like a retarded girl who just got out from a mental institution when i saw someone i scared of.

one of the most embarassing part: jedug jedug in kpala d dpn umum, including dy...(@ bus stop)...

if u want to hear the complete story, please do email me at clumsygirl@hotmail.com

most recommended for those who dont have something to laugh at..

the true story was so great and amazing till my hostel mates replayed the scenes after general meeting, somehow ngrasa kl clumsiness gw bisa jadi penghiburan buat org org...(brusaha mencari silver lining dr bencana bencana yg telah terjadi T.T)

PS:cant believe i LOST my COOL too much already...